ducks at least

On my way to school I suddenly felt too panicked to go. So I went home. I fed some ducks. Then I put on my favourite outfit I’d worn this week.



coat: gift/metamorphose, dress: marimekko, shoes: minju kim for h&m, shirt: second hand

I feel so overwhelmed by my workload I can’t even start studying. And yes, everything I ever do and organise is synced to my iCal, neatly planned and colour-coded. What else can I do but start? But what do I do when starting means anxiety attacks?

Photo on 26-02-14 at 10.35

Make up to represent my current mood.

opa pigeon

I got a little nervous while studying yesterday so I decided to make a video talking about animals! I felt relieved and less stressed afterwards… but then I felt nervous all over again so I just hopped to a friend and hung out and completely relaxed there. Sometimes you need to get away from your stuff just to clear your head and work better afterwards; I think I have a better view of my classes and the rythm of school I’m gonna get into now.

Is it worrisome that this is more then eleven minutes of me mainly talking about pigeons, mostly one pigeon, and that there’s also a part that didn’t even make it where I accidentally called our pigeon an “oppa” and, just like, maybe I’m a little too into animals. I JUST LOVE THEM SO MUCH. But, just to be clear ‘opa’, with a long ‘o’ is an affective Dutch term for grandfather. Just so you know I don’t wanna date an oppa pigeon, that’d be weird… though kinda cute in a platonic way? MAYBE?


So! I have been freaking out over my financial situation, a financial situation, possible future financial situations and all of the imaginable financial situations, while yesterday I asked what I could possible to for you, or anyone who to pay me, someone kind on tumblr just plain and said it that asking for help is important. Here I am asking for help. I’ve added a little text to my sidebar that explains my financial school related anxiety and a little donate button. I don’t expect much, I don’t expect anything. But asking for help is nothing to be ashamed of. We can all do this. Also, on another note, look at how cute I am!



Uhm, hello, of course I match my underwear to my outfits. Thank you.


pants: Marimekko, shirt: wl&t by Walter Van Beirendonck, shoes: Minju Kim for H&M, sweater: gift/second hand, coat: gift/Metamorphose

And look at this coat!! Another gift of my personal-shopper-patron-saint. Amazing. The hood fluff even has little ears. I can’t deal with this amount of cuteness. I need to stop writing because if I think about this coat much longer I am actually going to pass out and this post will never get up.