but but butt

dress: h&m, shoes: dr. martens, cardigan: second hand, socks: idk, garters: swanclothing

I’ve been pretty obsessed with wearing skirts and shorts as short as possible lately. Because (I don’t think I need a reason? But I am going to give you one of vanity anyway because vanity is as good as any reason) I like my butt. I like how round it is and perky and I like how when in profile it sticks out like the rest of me is a plank (which it isn’t).

I like how I like my butt because I hated it for a long time because I was sad and depressed as a teenager and everything made me feel like I deserved to take up as little space as possible

But then I faced my butt in the mirror every day
and then I liked it,
after a long time.

And now I feel sad and angry and exasperated and hopeless again
but I still like my butt.

And next time when a man makes kissy noises while grabbing my butt I swear I will not feel exasperated and scared and angry and try to not take up little space but I will slap this man, who has a face which deserves to take up as little space as possible.

And if you say ‘now, what good does that do’ I will slap you too because it does me and my butt good and that is that.

And if one more straight man comes at me and says that wearing shorts for him is exactly the same I am going to punch him because until women start regularly creeping him in cars, walking past a woman in the dark is as frightening, when men regularly get their ass cheeks pinched by strangers or until you have to face kissy noises or degrading looks from both men and women as soon as you step outside I just don’t want to talk to you or have you in my life because no one deserves douchebags like you in their life.

13 Comments

  • Your docs, socks, and garters. YES oh yes. Also big butts for the win! I can’t even count on two hands the number of times I’ve been hit on in walgreens late at night for my butt. And it’s not even like I was wearing short shorts or a skirt… I was wearing a baggy shirt and pajama pants most of the time!!!

    That’s when I realized that guys like that are pigs and they don’t really care what you’re wearing.

  • Oh god it’s really awful for black girls. Alot of media targeted @ black males shows…endowed women with voracious sexual appetites. I can’t tell you what guys have said to me

    • Ugh yes the sexually voracious black girl trope. Sexism is so varied and differs and probably grows exponential as soon as you’re not the white cute girl like I am and it makes me hate the world and all the isms so bad.

      • LOL I’m sure not every man is like that. At least in my experience this kind of treatment varied based on the area I was in or many other factors. They way you look, especially if you can’t change it, shouldn’t make people treat you bad.

  • Ah, I came here after a long while and totally adore this outfit & your blog in general. Following now and linking you to my blog xxxx xxxxx

  • Eline, you are so brave and radiant and amazing! I want to punch every man who bothers you in his obnoxious, entitled fucking face. AHEM, also, this outfit is ridiculously adorable! YES white and pink with sock garters!!! (I hope these are older pictures and your lovely berry hair isn’t gone) šŸ™‚
    P.S. YAY BUTTS! My butt is my favorite, too. <3

    • Aww!

      No this is a recent pic, the dye washed out after two weeks ;_________________;
      But I still have two thirds of dye left so everything will be okay, someday.

      BUTTS šŸ˜€

      • Aww yeah, I guess they wash out faster from unbleached hair. Butt(hehe) that could be a good thing, you wont be stuck with purple hair forEVER and you can change it more often. šŸ™‚

  • ELINE I LOVE THIS SO MUCH! the outfit and the way you express your feelings. it’s only now at age 26 that i feel comfortable, truly comfortable, in dresses that hit above the knee. so many people have told me it’s too scandalous, too short, but fuck it! love this!

  • It makes me emotional I tell you. The lovely outfitness! Sigh. This is very great.

    • And I should add, after getting over the photo-love and actually reading your entry, that of course I agree. I’ve had lots of unpleasant interactions publicly like most women have had. I got really good at giving a good elbow to the solar plexus when getting unwanted attention on the subway. It’s especially effective if you can do that as you exit the train and leave the person behind. I do hate even more though that when you retaliate, or whatever you want to call it, it can make the situation more dangerous. But I think doing something is important, if at the very least that person can realize for a moment that you are a living being, and that maybe maybe they should worry about what you might do to them.

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