everything is second hand except the pom pom on my head and the socks which were a gift

Some days I look down at my outfit and realise it was funded by impossibly little euros. This was one of those days I realised I looked awesome in a eight euro outfit. And I love that, I love that I rummage and dig all the little dusty corners of smelly boxes till I get what I want just because I am so passionate about dressing up. But sometimes it gets me down too. Sometimes I go out in real stores and silently weep for the prices, even in those horrible retail stores. But food, too. And so many things like buying drinks at a bar, or an album, or a train ticket, or a sandwhich when you’re outside and hungry and ice cream ice cream ice cream. Everything, really. And it sucks to have to make choices all the time and I want that piece of salmon damn it and quinoa and ugh if I have to stand here sober between all these drunk sweaty dancing people I’m just gonna die without a glass of wine, and oh my god will you look at that pretty dress why am I not allowed pretty things? and pretty people and pretty cars and furniture and If I’d only own this and that I’d be truly happy and I could start my life.

Let’s be real, my sadness and longing in this sense is unaltered bullshit. It is purely caused by a consumerist visual culture that promises dearly you’ll be happy if you only own this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this. Oh and buy this to buy less!

You don’t need any of that.

But sometimes it’s just damn hard for all of us to see through that and realise we don’t need either those things or that much money. If you can eat and have a roof over your head without worrying you’re really damn privileged and you better realise it.

Sometimes it stings and nags though. Here’s what I do about it: I don’t ever and I mean ever visit a store that’s out of my price range and when I don’t have any money I don’t visit stores, period. Advertising is the devil and you better know it; I use Adblock on all my browsers and try to look away from cheesy ads on the street. I don’t own a TV, and it’s made a huge positive impact on my life. No magazines or big fancy blogs ever. Damn it, magazines and blogs, you make me feel fat and ugly and poor, and I am neither of that. I am fabulous and wealthy in both looks and life and advertising better realise it soon enough.

After several years of this I feel pretty resistant against advertising and pretty things though that doesn’t mean I’ll have my bad days. I can still get super down on not having a lot of money to buy food though. I just love food so much. I am clawing at my teary-eyed face just thinking about fancy foods.

I mean, what do you do about this never-ending consumerist lust which is such a drag and bummer on your life?


  • The black outlining on the jacket makes it look cartoonish. I love it!

    I agree with what you wrote about consumerism. I only ever buy something if I really truly love it, but often feel as though my friends buy a new outfit or something every week just to have something new to wear, even if they aren’t particularly excited about it or don’t need it. I think it’s way better to just cherish a few special things than give in to market brainwashing which always tells us we need to buy more more more to be happy. May there be mountains of quinoa and salmon in your future!

    • I relate to both these things. Thank you, but I don’t need salmon or quinoa, when I can have tofu and rice (basically) šŸ˜€

  • I can relate to this, but I’ve come to realise (after many years) that I can go through phases of pretty extreme wantiness, and then phases where things disgust me. The thought of them, the space they take up, the many and various and worrying things they can say about you, to yourself and others.

    I’m getting rid of so much of my stuff at the moment, and trying not to fill the space they have left, but it is difficult – in this world that trys to tell us that in order to *be* we must *have* – to resist the lure of the pretty. For me it comes down to valuing, but not over-valuing, the things that I do own. And a cheap thrift store find is pretty guilt free, and big on satisfaction.

    Great outfit btw, totally cute!

    • Ack 100000% SAME! I try to give away lots to my friends too. When they like something and I don’t love it 100 percent I give it to them (and they do the same for me which totally results in having an equal amount of stuff though but heyyy w/e).

  • I think it’d be fun to make a creative guide/idea book on things do that are free or super cheap, but then theres the getting round to it (which will take forever, because of my stupid procrastinating habits). But yes, food ~ its so expensive! I stopped buying readymade lunches for work ages ago cause it just ended up costing so much, now all I have is a cheap can of soup.
    I love the outfit you’ve put together, especially that pom-pom.

    • Oooh that’d be really fun indeed. I may steal your idea (or maybe we can cooperate!) šŸ˜€ Oh yes, I hate work lunches, they cost so much! I just try to bring left overs or sandwiches or make a fancy bento box the day before.


  • P.S. the precise, rigid shaping of your jacket and overskirt contrast/go so nicely with the gentle shapes of the rustic skirt and knitwear. This is what I would call “a really good outfit”.

  • Random Thought: I only ever see that bright red color when vintage shopping…
    You look like a little Dutch doll. Words cannot express how much I get this post. Everytime I walk into Anthropologie I’m always saying, “THESE PRICES ARE RIDICULOUS!” or “I COULD GET THIS AT GOODWILL FOR LIKE 5 BUCKS!” and this is when I HAVE money. Then I cry because I sound like my mother. I think I you like something you shouldn’t feel guilty for liking it, unless it’s inherently wrong, harmful, or evil. It does suck when media is telling you what to like. When you do find something cool that media isn’t bombarding you with people call you a hipster, but whatever. This is a weird topic considering I’m studying Communication…

  • Ahh, I love what you wrote so much! I spent a year doing mission work in Haiti and Africa and the people there have so little, but are so beautiful and have beautiful spirits. I’ve never had a lot, but I understand now just how much I really do have and how pointless all the extra crap is.

    Awesome post! The outfit is gorgeous, as always. šŸ™‚

  • I’m really into doing things for free.
    For example I made a map of the fruit trees in public spaces in Montevideo. I was (and I am) really obsesed with the idea of free food…

    Here is the map, if you ever plan to visit montevideo šŸ™‚

    Plus there are quite a few communities of people who give and recive things for free. there is something called “gratiferia” where you can give the things that you dont need anymore and get whatever you want for free (clothes, frniture, books, music, you name it).
    It’s relativly new and it’s truly amazing to see the faces of the people when they find out that everything is for free.

    Everbody thinks that this kind of things can’t work. But in fact it does work! There is a wonderfull balance between the things that eveyone gives and the things that averyone takes.

    There’s also an online community whit the same sistem called Freecycled, I used last year when I visit germany šŸ™‚

    • Those are all interesting things, I’ll check them out! šŸ˜€

      Also a lot of people around all of the world right now are more and more into building up a community that helps one another by offering up services or goods in exchange for other services or goods! It’s really interesting, I don’t know how to google it exactly, but try to find out if it’s happening in your neighbourhood (probably!). Over here you can even earn local money by putting up flower beds on your house’s street side, and you can only spend that local money on local businesses or in exchange for goods/services.

      There is also this which is all over the world also and uses all the same principles but it’s not as elaborate as other communities over here

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